My Story
Long story short.. What had happened was...
I feel like im gonna have to come back to this blog post to update it periodically as I remember different facts, but lets start with what I got so far. Music has been in my blood for as long as I could remember . I know, typical right? But its true. Im a perfect example of how our environments can shape the outcomes of our lives by influencing goals, dreams, and realities. Many in my family are musicians, from cousins, to aunts and uncles, and even my father to this day. Growing up with music and instruments in the household was normal to me and my 30 something cousins. I love music , music loves me.
To be honest, I always thought I had talent, until... one day I just didn't. Lots of weed alcohol and failures lol. I didn't believe in myself after a while anymore and I had done so much crazy crap in my adolescent years that I begin to actually believe I could never accomplish becoming known for any of my talents. I continued running myself into the ground during my early 20s, but towards my late 20s I begin to wake up. I began to realize that my talents are truly a gift, and that I was doing my self in the world a disservice by not sharing them with y'all. I also believed and realized that this is part of my destiny and this life I have now and these moments right here are my only opportunity to do what I really want to do right now in my life, what I've always dreamed of and I would die miserable if I didn't try. Seriously that's what I told myself, amongst a bunch of other super melodramatic but realistic shit. I just decided to stop wasting my fucking life basically.
So eventually approaching 30, I went into this quarter life crisis and I just decided to literally drop everything, like every single thing, and just do what moves me and brings me happiness.... despite my then a lack of belief of my talents. Music brought me out a huge depression and I feel like it came so natural. And I didn't want to let that go and act like it was nothing. And then as my project began to grow I actually surprised myself… I was super shocked with my talent. I mean ya girl can sing, I can rap, I write very well, I write easily and quickly, I understand what im doing and it just makes sense, and I love it all! Shit I thought I had lost my voice from smoking weed every damn day for 15 years.. but nope, I just needed to warm up my damn vocal cords. Something I never had done before. Like come one Mec-Mec you don't wake up first thing in the morning and try to sing "resentment" by Beyoncé. smh.… And that was the type of stuff that I would do, and of course sound terrible, and never try again, and never let anyone else ever hear me. But once I heard the truth, my potential, I reconditioned myself quickly and still continue to get better every single day. Its magical.
But anyways, yes, recording myself and hearing how I sounded gave me the energy and excitement to keep manifesting this idea of being an artist for real for real. I always envisioned it though when I was a child before I started doing drugs and all that lol… But to bring back those nostalgic thoughts,I did lots of meditation and visualization and it worked I realized your girl still got it! And that I was seriously sleeping on myself! But im not gonna lie, that wasn't enough. Because it's easy to blow yourself up and not keep it 1000 with yourself… So I did need a second and third opinion. I searched and searched and searched for some professional singing coaches to give me one on one lessons. I did wanna learn some new techniques but I also wanted some professional feedback. And let me just say the response that I got was overwhelmingly positive to the point where my anxiety shot through the roof And I decided to go ham! My instructors were very excited about me, and confused why I was doubting myself and that made me feel like "Omg I have to get on this right now wtf am I doing". I remember that exact feeling because I still feel it every time I finish a song. But this is only the beginning and it has certainly been a rough start… But I know that I'm right where I'm supposed to be and it's only going to get better from here! Stay tuned, and nice to meet you!
By the way at the time im writing this I am planning to release my song "Bipolar", not sure exactly how it all is going to play out but I have a really good feeling.
-MeccaMusa
